once it was a problem for me. yet my luck erased it at one moment. absolute most of the people i meet suffer from it.
how? for example, one seeks to be free of suffering and at the same time with admiration talks about some teacher. that one feels inferior to that teacher and at the same time wishes to be like him/her. these two wishes are in conflict, so no progress.
to be free like sakyamuni one has to be sakyamuni in a way. then it's a work, a routine, a daily thing - not a matter of admiration. hence, admiration is an attachment to what we do not know, i. e. an illusion. while one believes inferior thus it will be.
stand up and act. nothing changes otherwise. you can do it!